Time Plays Tricks on You
Why is it, when you’re waiting for something big and exciting, time passes soo slooowly…?
It’s like the last few days before Christmas when you were a child, or the last days of school. The last week before a long-awaited vacation is often the same. Ugh.
The end of a military separation – I would imagine any separation – always take forever to pass. Maybe it’s because you aren’t sleeping and it just seems like the days are longer… Only a few more days until Mr. Soldier gets home.
And just in time too! I forget if I took my pills, forgot to eat lunch, can’t sleep. I did remember to take a shower, but I don’t recall any of it. There is not enough coffee in the world. Geez…I’m not sure what happened to this organized, focused woman.
Almost done…and then I can sleep for like 24 hours
Do You Ever Have Those Days?
Do you ever have those days when you just don’t have the energy to get out of bed in the morning? You need 3 cups of coffee just to trudge your way through another 24 hours of life’s drudgery…or worse a string of those days when you just don’t feel like yourself?
Clearly that’s a rhetorical question. We all have those days! But I’m going on the record to say…
I HATE THEM!
The internal conversation goes something like this:
“What is wrong with me?”
“Why can’t I get my act together?”
“I should not be this tired!”
“I have a wonderful life. Why do I feel so crappy?”
“Why do I feel 80 some days and 30 others?”
“WTH am I doing wrong?”
Yes, I continue to look for medical solutions to how I can feel “normal” one day and “bone-tired, nearly dysfunctional” the next, but the reality may just be that we all have cycles – cycles of energy, of mood, of creativity.
I am at this point just unwilling to accept that I cannot control or fix this. I only want the normal days. I don’t want the down ones:(
Is that so wrong?







